I Wish I Had the Words

I wish I had the words To express what I feel But words will never suffice Too traumatized to heal I cry invisible tears I scream silently I want to end it Pretty violently This life has no future Nothing to offer, nothing to gain I have nothing left to try In the end there's only pain I wish I had the words To express my sorrow But words are meaningless Suffering again tomorrow Therapy didn't do a thing Meds didn't help at all Who is gonna help me When I stand up and fall Again and again I fail to heal from my past Even if I'd be happy one day I know it's never gonna last I wish I had the words To explain my death wish I feel like I'm a pawn Just people's pet fish I still continue to cry Meds brought no salvation I wish to shut off my mind Take a nice long vacation I know nothings gonna change Trapped in this endless loop But where does this end How low am I willing to stoop I wish I had the words To explain I lost all hope Who is gonna carry me When I just cannot cope