I Wish I Had the Words

I wish I had the words
To express what I feel
But words will never suffice 
Too traumatized to heal

I cry invisible tears
I scream silently
I want to end it
Pretty violently

This life has no future
Nothing to offer, nothing to gain
I have nothing left to try
In the end there's only pain

I wish I had the words
To express my sorrow
But words are meaningless
Suffering again tomorrow

Therapy didn't do a thing
Meds didn't help at all
Who is gonna help me
When I stand up and fall

Again and again
I fail to heal from my past
Even if I'd be happy one day
I know it's never gonna last

I wish I had the words
To explain my death wish 
I feel like I'm a pawn 
Just people's pet fish 

I still continue to cry
Meds brought no salvation
I wish to shut off my mind
Take a nice long vacation

I know nothings gonna change
Trapped in this endless loop
But where does this end
How low am I willing to stoop

I wish I had the words
To explain I lost all hope
Who is gonna carry me
When I just cannot cope
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artlyy Avatar
September 15, 2026 at 7:02 AM
I've really been enjoying your poem and the emotions and imagery were so vivid that i could easily picture them as beautiful illustration. I'm a commission-based manga/webtoon artist, and I'd love to help bring your story to life if you're ever interested. Feel free to reach out at gm@il : akiracomicart2@ or on inst@ akiraa_artly
Agustin Avatar
March 18, 2024 at 12:28 AM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
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