I Was Lost

Looking around to see where I am, Didn't recognize a thing I saw, It seems I got lost somewhere in between, Trying so hard to find the real me, So many years I've tried to escape, Only finding myself back to where I started, I tried to run and hide but it didn't work, Life just caught up to me it seems, I tried to focus on fantasy and make believe, but I was told just to grow up, The pressure was too much for me, That all I could do was sit there and cry, I tried to erase reality, but you can't get rid of Life, I was scared to think about the future, and what would lie ahead for me, I was scared to commit in relationships, I thought I'd be safer free, I tried my best to avoid pain, and instead lost out on Life, I was scared to make decisions, and see how badly I did mistake, I was scared to call out for help, Knowing that someone would see the real me, I didn't want to follow the path of my loved ones, but the more I tried not to be I did become, I look into a mirror I found laying on the floor, and what I saw was the real me knocking on my door, I am different from what I thought I was, and I see the real me I wanted to be all along, Now that I found who I really am I'm proud, and I know now I won't run or hide to be myself, I'll be smart now and live my life, and try my hardest to survive