I Was Lost
Looking around to see where I am,
Didn't recognize a thing I saw,
It seems I got lost somewhere in between,
Trying so hard to find the real me,
So many years I've tried to escape,
Only finding myself back to where I started,
I tried to run and hide but it didn't work,
Life just caught up to me it seems,
I tried to focus on fantasy and make believe,
but I was told just to grow up,
The pressure was too much for me,
That all I could do was sit there and cry,
I tried to erase reality,
but you can't get rid of Life,
I was scared to think about the future,
and what would lie ahead for me,
I was scared to commit in relationships,
I thought I'd be safer free,
I tried my best to avoid pain,
and instead lost out on Life,
I was scared to make decisions,
and see how badly I did mistake,
I was scared to call out for help,
Knowing that someone would see the real me,
I didn't want to follow the path of my loved ones,
but the more I tried not to be I did become,
I look into a mirror I found laying on the floor,
and what I saw was the real me knocking on my door,
I am different from what I thought I was,
and I see the real me I wanted to be all along,
Now that I found who I really am I'm proud,
and I know now I won't run or hide to be myself,
I'll be smart now and live my life,
and try my hardest to survive
Copyright © Marybel Ortega | Year Posted 2006
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