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I Wanted To Tell You But

I wanted to tell you how magnificent you were.
Your laugh, your smile, the way you said hello to everyone.
I wanted to run up to you and say “You are glamorous!”
I wanted to say “I love you!” because I loved your spirit.
I admired your reckless fearlessness. I wanted to be like you.

But I was shy, and timid, and intimidated by your gloriousness.
So I did not do it. 
I wanted to.
Boy, did I want to.
I started to twice, but you waved and said “Hi,” and I could not do it.
You were too TOO.

A bit after high school, you were missing for four months.
Your body was found in the trunk of your car with a rope around your neck.
I was horrified, angry with myself.
For not telling you.
For not being brave enough.  
I was so damned angry with me.
For not being brave enough to tell you that I loved everything about you.
Your enthusiasm. Your smile. Your personality. Your likeability.
Your prettiness, your willingness to include everybody!
I guess you know now.
You can read this in heaven where you are no doubt lighting up the angel’s world.

Copyright © Caren Krutsinger | Year Posted 2019

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Jennifer Proxenos Date: 9/1/2019 2:07:00 AM A sad but sweet tale. She will read your poem where she is now and will be amongst the angels that protect you Caren. So sad she had to die because of some psycho! I wrote a similar poem presumed missing, feared dead. All the best dear Caren, Hugs, Jennifer. Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 9/1/2019 9:52:00 AM Thank you Jennifer. I am sad that I never said anything. But I think she knows. I have prayed for her for years.

Jeanne Mcgee Date: 8/31/2019 11:25:00 PM sometimes we never get that 2nd chance... Login to Reply Caren Krutsinger Date: 9/1/2019 9:52:00 AM No, so we need to take it NOW. I have learned the lesson in the hardest way possible.