I Walk With Sadness

I love you so much mommy and was not prepared for your death for that last gasp at life- and the reality of it is dragging me down the sadness within me is raw and my heart is bleeding I feel lonely and isolated and lost . . . floating like a balloon drifting to nowhere does anyone truly understand my confusion- my grief my deep sadness and my endless weeping . . . you wore a rose pink dress and gosh you looked pretty I can still smell the scent of all the pink roses choking me at the cemetery it seemed a thousand birds sang just for you and the sky was as blue as a cool lake . . . and the breeze whispered to me your last words- I love you sweet girl I feel most days like my legs are heavy and my insides are hallow and I pledge to hold this sadness to my heart forever and ever though the pain is terrible- the truth is I cannot let go of it . . . oh mommy, I planted you a garden today- like I promised you I would and each bloom is in memory of you . . . ______________________________________ June 5, 2019 Poetry/Free Verse/I walk with sadness Copyright Protected, ID 19-1150-106-02 All Rights Reserved. Written under Pseudonym. Written for the contest, Going Deep Within An Emotion sponsor, Sheri Fresonke Harper 12th Place