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A Silent One Contest: The Person I Used To Be--Want To Be 20Sept24 'I vow to live fully in each moment and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion. ' Thich Nhat Hanh
Can I allay man's acceptance of poverty which was not a dire circumstance before? On those past days of summer the stale from bread crumbs fell onto the lidless eyes of each child, woman on the street while my hands stretched out in full vanity ... my very core frustrated, angry as I walked without faith; this self- imposed conceit ruling my thoughts as I served the community for my own glory. And though I wished for more nights abundant that will quench their souls, I slaved, part of my time dedicated to teach them how to make a living-- but can I wish for the morning sun to come and glow behind the ridges of a slum village wrecked by knives of hunger? 'Empathy denied by pride! ' How could I befriend genuine charity when my self- centered heart hungered for personal gain, the applause of greatness screaming from tin cans and rice bowls of unpriveleged families? How full of myself was I, anticipating honors for service rendered, an accompaniment to my thirsty pride... and like so, reaping poor men's adulation, I became more empty, more devoid of inner peace... Into deep mournings, prayers sought me: Who is poorer of spirit-- the giver or the taker? I pause now...another tomorrow begins, baptism of epiphany flames the belly. Another day arrives, my hope and transformation refreshed.

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Date: 10/17/2024 9:11:00 AM
Congratulations on your win. I enjoyed reading your write. Have a wonderful day/weekend writing away.....................
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Date: 10/12/2024 5:13:00 AM
You got the title wrong, which you seem to do a lot... We can all feel like this at times... Your last stanza sums it up really well.. Congratulations for your placement in the contest..
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Date: 9/27/2024 4:30:00 PM
I can relate, because I've had this attitude before, too. Thanks for your honesty and sharing. <3
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Date: 9/27/2024 3:32:00 AM
Hi Nette! This expressive beautiful poem of yours drives home a message that doing things to please our ego is not enough to elicit personal inner satisfaction. Acts of kindness, praise, etc are denuded of true value without empathy. Admitting to our failures and starting anew is a sign of strength. ~ Warm regards & hugs my friend. // paul
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Date: 9/22/2024 12:21:00 PM
Just noticed a typo in my dumb texted comment below. Now fixed.
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Date: 9/21/2024 1:09:00 PM
Dear Nette, what an insightful prose poem showing the battles of pride and recognition of an opportunity to have a gracious heart and giving soul. As I read through your well versed words I find myself at times struggling with humbleness but there is always that opportunity to change my heart. Loved Your Poem and good luck on the contest. Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel
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Date: 9/21/2024 11:25:00 AM
This is an outstanding poem my dearest poet friend Nette! You shared your realizations very beautifully and creatively in your words. That's why you're so blessed and those blessings and gifts of God even flow more abundantly upon you coz the weaknesses that you've felt/discerned were experiences that'll make you more valuable. Very impressive write my dearest sis! Your great talent in poetry shines always. I love this a lot. Thanks for sharing. God bless you always and your writings. Hugs
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Date: 9/21/2024 6:22:00 AM
This incredible poem revolves around the conflict between genuine altruism and self-serving charity. The speaker grapples with their motivations for helping the underprivileged, ultimately reflecting on the emptiness of actions taken for personal glory rather than true compassion. The subject explores poverty, the moral implications of giving, and the journey towards self-awareness and transformation. Wonderful poem dear Nette.
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Date: 9/20/2024 9:15:00 PM
This is so heartfelt. a lamentation rising from the core of your heart. We render service to others, mostly to get acceptance from others. As we crave for more and more of this, we become increasingly dissatisfied. Expecting nothing, when we render service, it brings us inner joy and satisfaction in abundance. With your efforts to rise to this level, may you be able to derive greater contentment. A beautiful poem dear Nette.
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Date: 9/20/2024 7:12:00 PM
Wow Nette. This is utterly fantastic. How wise of you to notice your flaw and change it. I see a first placement for this gem
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Date: 9/20/2024 12:02:00 PM
Dear nette, what an honest and sincere poem this is woven in such a seamless manner! Sometimes we look back and think of all that we were and thank the Lord for no longer being all that we were. But thats all part of growing and finding inner voice and purpose! Pleasure reading this! Best wishes! Sending you light always
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