I Think I Love You, Dad

A hero to a little boy, Smartest man in the world, so full of joy. Big HOUSE! Big beard. Big Family! Big belly!! “I love you son.” “I love you too, Dad”. A whole different place, Confusion wins the race. One night, a big fright. Discovery leads to recovery “I love you, I promise.” “I love you too, Dad” A fresh new family, A mansion from a fantasy. Pink Floyd and Air guitar! And “this is not the droid you're looking for.” “We love you son”. “I love you, too” A trip to the beach, Just about out of reach. Chicken bakes and heart aches. Beautiful piers and encroaching fears. “I love you, see you next month,” “I think I love you too, Dad.” A long train or a maybe a flight, One at a time, but always polite. Awkwardness and distance. Loneliness and inconsistence. “Love you, see you next time.” “See you, Dad.” A missed call, or unresponded text, Why can’t I find the time? Neither this week or next? We’ll schedule! It’s fine. Just fine. And repeat. “Speak soon, son.” “Goodbye, Dad.” A sad piece of news, a long conversation. Is it actually happening? Time for deliberation. I’m polarised. A tear in one eye. Phone to his ear. I hope he can hear. “I’m coming to see you Dad.” “I think I love you, Dad.” “I love you, Dad.” A man who was loved, Finally at peace, watching from above. We’ll celebrate the good times as we elevate our goodbyes, And one last time, without the tune - I’ll see you on the Dark Side of the Moon.