I Take the Easy Way Out

What are you thinking about? I've never had this much trouble Reading-- You never let me in And it makes me think You're sick of me-- That you don't want me around-- The sound Of another person-- A different guy Telling me he loves me-- That he wants to be mine It's so different and new It almost has no meaning I say "I love you too" But do I really? I never gave myself time to heal-- Time to recover I like to think of myself As a fighter-- As someone who is strong But the truth is I take the easy way out If given the opportunity I don't know what I want in life-- Or what my calling is All I know is that you take away My loneliness And keep my mind occupied I'm so afraid you'll leave me Like I left him So unexpected So sudden I just want this to pass I want this year to be finished So I can start over again With someone-- And something new I want to feel loved I want to feel needed I want to feel closer to you I miss you