I Ran Away From Love In Distrust

I ran away from love in distrust and decided not to live in guilt, but without the felt desire the days weren't lived to the fullest; and the unsolved fears stayed with me leaving the doubts and uncertainties a lover could deeply feel... when all chances were available. Who can blame me for doing certain things when everybody was doing them too and since love touched an unbeliever like me and showed how simple it could have been to have trusted you a bit more instead; is it difficult to accept lies and not start doubting? Being easy-going has changed my image and all honest smiles; it's no shame to let privilege using the loveliest part that one has for acting smart. I ran away from love in distrust and decided not to live in guilt; I ran away from love in distrust so discouraged and uncertain, and by letting that happen I refused to fulfill sensations and I gave myself the dullest desperation while everyone else was having fun, but everybody stopped there to ponder mistakes wondering where to go from there when every reason had its own unpredictability. Who can blame me for doing certain things when everybody was doing them, too? Being silly and naive worries you a lot, should I change and please you instead? I ran away from love in distrust, not realizing that pain was all my fault; I ran away in distrust and lost all for my stupidity what else would I have done to own you completely?