I Promise, It's Nothing Personal
Only twenty-five years since I took your name,
fluorescent lights, a government building,
the officiant a stranger we met that morning—
no pictures, no rehearsals, just vows
read like lines on a form, under a plastic trellis
someone thought might make the room
feel more human.
My shoulders shook with laughter
you didn’t get and still don’t.
It came from some gut-deep knowing,
like my body caught the future unfolding
before I could see it. That laugh hit hard,
spilled into my knees, a crack of thunder
in the dead air of something meant to be holy.
I told you not to take it personally.
You stood stiff, ironing your silence into the room,
flattening the wrinkles of your suit
while I swallowed every word.
Now, my skin wears its own proof,
fine lines scratched into corners of my eyes,
crow’s feet tracking down each glance
you could never follow. Eleven years
your junior, and somehow, I’m older—
moments pulling tight until we’re both
squinting at the same dim horizon.
At night, you drift off beneath blinking LEDs,
chin tucked to chest. I stretch the minutes,
stealing them from a day long erased,
rolling them like old newsreels,
flickering memories across hours
we no longer name.
I wipe yesterday’s drool from your chin—
twenty-five years of cleaning up
the mess time left behind.
And somehow, it’s still funny—
how the punchline never landed,
how I’m still holding onto this joke
that split open between those vows and now.
I laugh because I knew, even before 'I do'
that none of this would ever be personal.
Copyright © Jaymee Thomas | Year Posted 2024
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