I Paid No Debt

I was once being imprisoned by vengeance, Thinking and doing things to make everything even. I was once being punished by revenge, Thinking and doing things against myself. The trajectory of my thoughts goes the same direction, Travels its target according to plan, Whether or not to think and act bad. Then suddenly, it took the decided location. A decision that is irrevocable. Inevitable things wandered my mind, I do deserve blessings? Do I deserve success? Even if my inspirations were my hatred and selfishness? I was dancing through the fire of guilt, Acting like a hero of my own fantasies and illusions, Hearing the deafening screams of my darling heart which I burn For no apparent good reason but to full the hunger soul of my dark shadow. I played my own rhythm, In a song with no melody and out of tune, Then sadness and loneliness were become my friends. I bothered when I saw my heart turned into blue. Catastrophe is what I embraced. Oceanic anger is what I felt. Death is what I forcibly demanded. I saw myself amidst the hourglass, asking for help. Thousands of people heard my voice, But only one person rescued. He filled the hole of my heart. He cleaned my retaliating mind. I was once being imprisoned by vengeance, But I see the light of truth, and then I was accepted. I was once punished by revenge, But I feel love more than it, and then I paid no debt.