I Only Wish

she's beautiful, 
                                                         with hair dark and deep.
                                         i imagine me running my fingers through it.
                                                    i imagine kissing her cheeks.
                                                         ive wanted her forever.
                                                           i need her right now.
                                                            but she's like a bird
                                                      nobody can tie her down.
                                   i wish i had her with me. so i can tell her these things. 
                       and i also wish i could tell my mom, who would be so disapointed in me.
                                      i only wish i could come out and scream to the world.
                                                "I DON'T CARE I'M IN LOVE WITH A GIRL!"
                                                 i only wish that my mother could see, 
                            that even though i might be gay, i still want her to love me.
       so tonight ill call her, my lover (if that) and fight with her when she ccalls herself fat.
                                            i laugh along with her, and talk about her day.
                       then my mom will burst through the door crying. then i'll tell her, im gay.
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June 5, 2013 at 9:13 PM
Hi Carson, wow... i have had friends in love with me... i am not gay, but i think i allowed it .. i see you expressed how you don't care what others think...that is good... as a mother, i can't say i would fully accept... thank you for the invite... a good poem...linda
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June 17, 2013 at 2:43 PM
Thank you Linda. It means alot to me Carson
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