I Never Died

Here they come once again The thoughts that mock the pain within I try and try with all my might To hide the tears and fake a smile But, alas, I am to weak to fight It pulls me closer Hugs me tight These thoughts are what keep me up at night To sick to eat To lost to care I wonder what it's like out there Out of this darkness Into the light Please just grow wings And I'll take flight Soar high above the trees Let me go I'll fly free Away from all the pain and misery that's held me here my entire life All I can think of now is a knife The razors edge So sharp So sleek It whispers its plea Become one with me I cannot I say For you lie to me You never made things better Get away from me All the blood and lacerations I always succumbed to your temptations But you never once kept your word You promised you'd help me Promised you cared So I pushed you against me with all my might I slashed and I mutilated my fair skin Happy the fight would soon end But you lied You lied Broken promises that haunt my mind Because I'm still here I never died