I Needed a Friend

I dunno how to start... The fact is... Well I didn't want to do it. But, felt a need for it.... To share this with someone... Uh, I'm hating myself... I'm really hating my life. I'm feeling alone... On the way I'm really alone. I was looking for someone, I was looking for someone friend, I wanted someone who think the way I think, Who wants what I want, Who feels the way I feel. I wanted someone like that, But it may be the burden of my luck not to get someone like that... I'm hating the way I'm living... Too many dreams... No one to share or co-operate, No one to feel my feelings... I wanted a company, Like I mentioned.. But, sigh! Now and then I think why have I been like this?! If I weren't like this, Then what would have been? Why, I'm the only guy not to get someone that friend! Uh! I feel I'm alone, All the way, alone.. No one to feel what I need, I needed. I'm used to be alone like this even in the middle of a bunch of friends! I needed someone like that. Well, I know I'm alone... And I need someone that friend. With whom I can see the future, Or at least we can get beyond the hard wall together... Or, someone who knows better about me than I, myself... Why, did it have to be like this?! Couldn't it be something else?! Other than this?! Uh, I'm patient. I'll look for the future to find someone like that... Or even if I don't get any, I've to continue my journey all by myself... And I'll.. Even without anyone to feel for me... I have to do it, I have to crack it... Even if I'm alone. I'm jealous of someone to be surrounded by friends like those I dream of. If I were to born there or even they were here with me... It'd be like what I wanted, what I needed. Now, that I'm alone... I shouldn't be looking for someone? Uh, well I suppose I shouldn't. Just, keep going on the way alone... All alone.. . I suppose I'll someday find someone like that. Or Shan't I? Uh, I dunno. Then, if that's the case I'll make friends in my own heart, in my own dream or in virtual reality. If, I'm only to think I've someone like that,then it should be okay with me. Or, shouldn't it? A guy without friend, a guide or something... Alone on the way... Leaving the dreams behind... Uh, I can't think of. And, even I don't want to think of... But, if that's the reality, then yea it's okay with me. I'll Confront it. By- Tapas Singha