I Need You

Poem: I need you Mom, you’ve left us so unexpected Since then, I feel nothing inside You were my shadow Now you’re gone, I feel so hollow I admit, when I write these lines, I’m emotionally scarred People say it is very evident from eyes I hate to tell lie, These emotions are real, Let me, paint the picture for you, how I feel inside my mind. I’m trapped here, I need to release Being vulnerable is so hard to comprehend Pain is a prison for me, it looks like there is no end I’m not here for people; to please I’ve realized, at some point in life people will always leave. Now, I live on the dark side So much self-consumed by the fear, that has comfortably got settled in my mind you left us so unexpected, we were waiting for your recovery but life played a game of treachery every time I heard the door-bell, I run to window-side Coz you’ve kept us at the window, waiting for you believe me, there’s no secret I wish, when my mom took the last breath I should have been there, that’s the only regret I still feel like, I’m dreaming It’s hard to comprehend the fact that, you are not here anymore I was too young to understand that, When your soul departure to home-of-God, oh Lord! I’ve lost the old me I’m bleeding to death, with the holes in my chest I’m living with regret; I don’t trust the thing beating inside my chest It’s harder to face this all alone These thoughts make me feel captivated I don’t want to feel this way, I’m always aggravated These emotions are automated. I wish someday, I wake up and I’m able to get rid of this burden I’m a perfect definition of wreck-soul In our last conversation, sitting in the bedroom We talked about career and life, I remember you told me, ” If I’m gone, son: strive hard to make your life”. I’ll be your guardian angel, to protect you from any harm We’ll meet in your dreams, and I’ll keep you warm I was crying my eyes out, that kid was feeling pitiful Now, this relationship is something we will never have, It’s not funny, it’s hard for me to grasp It took me everything- not to scream at your funeral It hit my brain, especially the frontal I need you; I need you, mom I cannot face this alone © -Vishal Singh.