I Miss You So.

The fill of a cool morning breeze the smell of a cup of coffee in the early morning hours finds me missing you, this was when I had you to myself to talk to, to listen to, these were my rejuvenated moments life's pick me up, Now thirty-seven and five years later I still wake in the early morning hours to find my time alone with this to do, in good times or bad I long to hear your voice to laugh with to listen to as you always knew.... maybe it was the way I held my cup. As I sit looking into the morning I wonder what would you be saying to me you were always proud of me but silence was your queue, you always found the words that lift me to a new, the words that put a smile on my face the words that eased my pain, I have truly come a long away with life with my wife, with my kids with letting my fillings show a little more... polished like you. but I still have hard times bad fillings and no one to make them go away I sit and think of words you would say thinking racking my brain. to not hear you tairs me apart, you were always there for me and that's why I miss you so, but to remember the words you would tell me, the times you held me, your smile, your face, your life, your heart, I know your in a better place and your happy, I know it was your time to go, but being a mamas boy after all these years I wish you were here, to see my kids grow my heart unfold my smile light the room like yours did, so this morning I raised my cup to you with love and cheer. like every morning mom I love you......in my heart always, love your kid.