I Loved

Mind, spirit and soul Truth be told, I gave you my all Friends didn't have to know about us This was for my heart and yours to know. I loved. Took my heart on a journey With a car that had its tank empty But I knew that we'll get to the garage surely But I didn't know that's where we were going. It seemed as though you have better plans So I put mine on the side and listened to your will and cans That had no maybes so I was willing to ride this baby... Though it was empty. Love is blind and maybe stupid No,Love is not blind and I am not blind I just find reality too victimising so I hide my small heart behind the saying "Love is blind" As for it being stupid? NO! But just maybe our relationship was stupid. So I walked away Till a flood of tears caught up with me on my way And I started floating back to you Till I realised you caused the floods then went back to sunnydays. I can't swim so I'll sit here until I'm covered with mud Perhaps I walked away too far When I turned, the journey back to you was too long Perhaps, I gave up on you too fast that when I turned our car needed much more than gas But maybe the journey had to end eventually... But wait you have my property So we must end this properly So I'll swim to where you are My heart; that is all I want. Getting constipated by anger Over-controlled by feelings Swimming in your tears Added salt to my fears! I found you exactly where I left you I apologised for my mistakes long enough for you to finish fixing the breaks The car was crumbling like dry cooked cakes You told me that you found a she to help you cause I really caused you pain You told me "I should stop talking to you, it'll ease the pain" I went crazy thinking; "Are you insane? Do you know how bad it was, swimming through that salty lane?" You carried on saying "I'm feeling much better..." Heartbeat got slow I started thinking "Oh no! Yolanda you a monster for causing the guy so much pain! Yolanda you are stupid for risking so much for no gain! But no way! I got pride so I won't let you see my pain So instead I said "Oh...wow...okay...cool" Hearing my heart beat slow And a rock of sadness on my throat I said "I will help you get better" I'm starting my own flood and I hope it takes you away Don't swim back to me.