I Love You But Im Not In Love With You

“ i love you, but I’m not in love with you” you say as i drown myself in another round of tequila shots. Numbing the pain the week has forced upon me where my darkness has creeped up on me and haunted my thoughts Yet you think those words are exactly what i need to hear. “ i love you, but I’m not in love with you ” you say as suddenly my stretch marks become large canyons on my body. Creating a distance that no man is brave enough to cross. But you think that’s okay because you still “ love me” “ i love you but I’m not in love with you” you say as your ex boyfriend’s name lights up on your phone. I can’t help but wonder if you’re still craving his toxicity dripping off your lips as he spoon feeds you lie after lie. And when you lie with him, i wonder how you will react to him telling you what you have told me so many times. “ i love you, but I’m not in love with you”