i love you

your countless lies leave a sour taste on my tongue “i love you” you claim yet it’s muttered using all of the air in your lungs your breathing stops and you have nothing left to give yet i catch myself screaming out “please just live” stay with me awhile longer i can’t face reality without juggling your saunter the tear stained pillow cases mean nothing anymore as long as i can hold onto what i think i adore “i love you” you mutter one more time and a bead of sweat drips down worry, because you’re aware you’re my lifeline the wadded up blankets cover your face as i lie awake with a trace of your dna the painful silence hurts my ears i know your heart stopped beating a long time ago i fear so i take a deep breath and give you what’s left in my lungs so you can have the last reminisce of what i call “love”