I Love and Hate You

Chance after chance and there's still no changing you. I wanna call you, curse you the out and say we're threw but Everytime I look at you my heart just melts. If I had done it the only thing I would be thinking is this what I really wanted? Could I live with myself really knowing that it's over or would I move on to greener pastures. Yes. I have to pick up the phone but sad thoughts creep in my mind of me being alone. No love, joy, no happiness. Just pain, guilt cuddled up with sadness and a little madness but again there's a sigh of relief cause without the pain you keep causing I would have finally found peace. No subliminal shots no he say she say I'll be finally done hearing from your mouth nobody wants you but me anyway. I would miss the games we'd play and the way you'd get mad but I'll be glad cause I can hold you close plant gentle kisses On your neck and whisper to you that you're the only person I love the most. You'd hug me and kiss me back and that night for hours on end our bodies would be attached molded together like clay. U ask me would I ever leave but for your love baby I will always stay.