I Lost You

Once upon a time you cared for me and about me when no one else seemed to. You even cared about me even though I said and did the things I did. You warned me of the future, about what would happen. I didn't believe it would happen, When it did, I didn't want to believe it. I caused even more problems and dug myself deeper in to despair and pushed everyone away. Burnt my bridges became nothing to many. I was told I didn't care about you about the family, about anyone but myself. But I know that I do care and love you all. And I know I could care less about myself. I can't explain my actions I only know my feelings. At most times I felt as though I should just leave, like everyone suggested, But I feared losing everyone, and being alone in the world. I screwed up beyond repair of anything. I have not much trust by you, nothing of sentimental value, because of me and how I was with those who cared. Once upon a time a family cared for and about me. Then I ruined it.