I Live For You

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go . . . " ee Cummings I carry your essence with me In the fire of hope that has been lit In the very depths of my heart I carry your eyes in the radiance of mine own, At least, They are there on those days that mine are not puffy, Red and sore, after having cried the night away, Lamenting at your silence and your coldness! I carry your kindness with me Even if it feels like a sword slitting through my body As I wonder if you do feel for me, At least, even, a tiny little bit! I carry your breath in me I live because you do I shall perish the day you shall cease to be I am already dying, A little bit at a time, As you steadily and firmly keep Putting me back into my place, Reminding me That maybe, The fire of hope that burns in my heart Is nothing else but a fragment Of my own imagination And that dreams, in real life, Never do come true! Still, amidst all of this blurry haze of hurt I carry you in my heart Hiding my tear stricken eyes behind glamorous smiles And perfect make up Going on my way With the broken pieces of my heart Stuck to each other Lighting up the world with enough zeal in my gaze As to make the rest of humanity Want to follow me! But I am living solely for you I shall cease to be The day you would snatch your heart off my grip And tell me Go on your way, As our roads differ! I shall cease to be Drowned in the flood of my tears Buried in the tomb of my own pain Burnt in the pyre of my own madness Remembered as the one living for that impossible love As it had been willed by the skies! Written on 3 November 2019 Writing Challenge, November- Some Kind of Love Sponsor, Dear Heart - Wiishkobi Ode