I Just Want To Be Me

Nobody told you life was going to be hard. All you have to do is live it and hope the moments you don't want to remember becomes blurs and the ones that stay with you make you who you are. Nothing comes easy, nothing is hard. It's what you make of it...and I just want to be me... I'm tired of how every moment we spend thinking of how different our lives would be turns into a sob fest and we all know how this feels; so what can we do differently? What can I do differently? I’m losing me, changing and I can’t stop. No matter how hard I try. I feel like a fish out of water, gasping, trying to survive. Waiting for someone to save me! All I’m getting are flat lines showing that I am dying. The sun is going down now, and noting is left to be said. Slowly I wait for the day to end so that I can sleep and dream the dreams where I am me again. Where I feel alive and happy; instead of a mirrored image of myself… ...and tonight I sleep with the thought that I will wonder aimlessly through the shadows searching for what use to be me finding, a person who no longer exists...