i JUST WANNA KNOW WHY?

So you decided to take the one person i had in this life didnt ,matter what i did, She was my everything,she gave me alife and brought me up , since i was a kid, As I sat by her side i was forced to watvch her slip away, As she drifted a part of me continued to die more and more everyday, Just barley wrapped my headd arounnd her being gone and finally caught my breath, and again without warning you decided to take my daddy, my rock, my go to, my best friend, He was mu protector, my only saftey, leaving me lost and terrified knowing my heart will never mend, Its not fair i wanna know why? first my Grammy, then ,my Dad, What have i done so wrong to uou God and what did i do to make you so terribly mad?, As i held there cold cold hands and kissed there oh so cold cheek I completley died inside no more feeling left i was just numb and extremely nasueas and weak, For months i sat there on the edge of my bed paralyzed didnt matter what anyone said, Trying everything i possibly could to try to accept that they actually were really dead, As im clinging to life and struggling to find the will to breath, you once again decide to take someone very dear to me, As if my granmmy and my dad wasnt enough you decide to also take my grandpa and mom too, God you have taken my family, you have taken my whole life, every bit of support and love you have taken it all, You left me here on this earth broken with 2 confused broken and lost kids i dont understand all this,I am strong but not this strong, this pain inside is far too much I wanna just close my eyes and blow away with the warmth of a kiss, why me huh? what have i done to u to deserve this nightmare its too much, without a thought I fall apart by the sweetest simplest innocent touch, WHY WHY WHY I WANT ANSWERS RIGHT NOW! JUST WANNA KNOW WHY?