I Have

I have gotten used to coming home to be alone I have gotten used to not questioning where you go and I have gotten used to a short call to say hello but I have not gotten used to the way my heart feels ohh so low I have leaned to be okay with talking only briefly our schedules don't match up at all but someday you will see me I have learned you never come when you say you will and I have learned not to expect the actions said by you I would like to be taken out just once in a blue moon I don't ask for much you see just to be with you I would like to lay one night knowing you won't have to leave I would like to wake up to you sleeping next to me. But no, you can't not right now maybe in a year should I wait when my heart breaks? every day I feel the tears I am lonely and in love with someone who loves me or so I think, but where oh where is he?