I Have

I have been a fool for all these years. I've sat and let you bring out my tears. I have been your leaning post. Even though,you disliked me the most. I have given you support, in your sadness,and your sorrow. Even though I might not be here tomorrow. I have kept quiet,when you were in a rage. But, now its time,for me to turn the page. I have sat around,waiting for you to call. Then you would just go off somewhwere else and play baseball. I have cooked you dinners that were always on time. Then when you were late, you would tell me,that you were on line. I have planned many a holiday, only for you to tell me,you can not stay. I had so many plans for our family,and that's no joke. Only for my plans to go up in smoke. I have long since given up. I'll just sit here now, and play with my pup. Someday, you will look back,and wonder why it tok you so long to get back on track. So son,Please don't worry,I'll be just fine. Living my life,out in th pines. You have always come to me,for love and compassion. Then you would go to your dad,and the love he gave,he would only ration. Why can't you see,I love you and Sandi the most. When it comes to your dad, for the things he has done, he will only boast. Many times your dad has told you,I was a bad mother. But, in your dads lies,you will only smother. He was the one that chose another. You should know me very well,I can not lie. I'll stand by my words till the day I die. Son, you really should not scream at me,as I am your mother. If, I wanted to hear that,I would go to my brother. I have been patient,Kind, and considerate. You don't have to treat me like i'm an illiterate.