I Fell, He Betrayed

I still wake up every morning with thoughts of him Wishing I could tell him my dreams Then I remember all that happened And I know he'll never deserve me It hurts to know it turned out like this I fell in love and it was just a tease The day I needed to let him go To cut off all contact and move on Was one of the hardest days of my life But now I know I was just being walked on Had he been sorry this might have been different But I can't entertain such thoughts He acted hurt too but he never said sorry The apologizing was left on my back made me feel like I was no good A bad friend only good for his attacks Then the crying and begging would begin Please don't leave, he'd say, please take him back But not this time, he just didn't care And I just can't anymore either So much pain and stress, so much hell We had our good times, memories The beginning was the best, I fell Trusted and loved and believed in him Then the drugs came and he taught me well What comes first ever in such a love So I forgive but never will forget this hell