I Feel Like a Burden

I feel like a burden. Parents kicked me out saying “He’s gotta deal with her now” And they weren’t playing “If you leave this house, You can’t come back” Don’t worry mom and dad I had enough time to pack. Just cause I wanted to stay the night You ended up yelling I left after that fight. Things had to change Couldn’t get to HTC Losing friends left and right People started judging me Just trying to live But it doesn’t go so well Sometimes I feel alone Feel like I’m living in hell. Cause no one understands That age means nothing to me If I love someone Can’t you just be happy? Missing my family But it doesn’t matter Going crazy cause I’m lonely Like wonderlands crazy mad hatter Calling my boyfriend Hard when he’s away Ending the call early Cause we don’t know what to say Wishing I was normal Hate what people think Can’t talk to no one Cause I’m on the brink Of not being able to cope I know I’m negative sometimes But all I want is to hope I want to be able to Smile again But idk how Where or when. When he’s there My life seems so much sweeter Met him at work he’s on the clean team (But that doesn’t mean he’s neater) Gotta buy the groceries Hoping to do more Part time at the bakery At the cub foods store Life is complicated Like staying balanced on a saddle New conflicts every day But I’m still fighting my last battle. Once I finally feel That I am close to winning I look at the mess behind me Saying “that was just the beginning”