I Don'T Understand

I don't understand what you see. I'm nothing special. I'm awkward, chubby, paranoid. What do you see in me, that makes you smile? Why do you waste your time on someone like me? I'm so clingy and I can't help it. Why do you claim to love me, when it's hard for me to love myself? I'm a wreck and I can't see why you're still here.. Why can't you be like everyone else and just realize how screwed up I am. I complain, I cry. You hold me near and tell me I'll be okay but I still don't see how.. How can anyone love someone as I? A girl who's emotionally destroyed, a girl who's emotionally unstable. A girl who wants to die. I'll never understand why you're still here...