I Don'T Know What To Do

Loving you was the most beautiful thing I have ever felt Losing you was the most painful blow I have ever been dealt Letting go of you now is what I must do But I don’t know how, when I still love you If I say the words one more time And see that fear show in your eyes And do not hear the words returned Then I’m nothing more than a lover scorned And I won’t let you do that to me again Real love doesn’t run away when things are tough Proof you couldn’t have loved me very much And that’s the biggest reason for the tears I cry Not the loss of trust but rather the lies The total abuse of the faith I had in you Believing and trusting in dreams come true Waiting for the day when we would rejoice You were called away by another’s voice Too weak you were to stand alone or stay Like a coward, you walked away Without a thought for the heart you’d break I wanted to hate you, and at times think I do Behind the love I feel for you How could you be so selfish, think just of yourself When there were those who loved you more Than anyone has loved you before And than anyone has loved you since Real love, not based on lies, but circumstance Knowing who you are through and through And in spite of the truth now, still loving you When you live in fear that the truth reveals That you know inside how you really feel I want to say I’m strong enough to wait To feel your touch and seal our fate But it’s not that I am not able to be strong It’s that I need to feel in your heart I belong And that means always, not just when convenient I know how you feel, but not what your words meant Trying to understand the game you play The disparity of your feelings and the words you say Or the words you don’t speak when you want me If I’m there for you, I cannot be free Choosing the fear and pain, not desire but need Part of me needs to walk away Part of me needs to try to stay And I don’t know what to do