I Cried For You

I cried for you today, tears of living in your absence. Maybe not so much for you but rather, my own selfishness in missing you. I await the time of healing, of getting beyond the loneliness. It doesn't seem possible, so many things stir up your memory. I was so blinded by the nonsense of the world. I must have been inattentive, oblivious to what we shared when you were here. Why did you put up with me and love me with all my flaws? I am grateful beyond words and what lies in my recollected memories. Maybe now, at last, I can see the reality of who we were. I was nothing and no one by myself. I cried for you today, realizing you loved me more than I ever loved you.