I Choose Life Instead

I swallowed my life away one day No desire for the future to play. No care to live another moment I just wanted the world to be silent. A handful of pills I quickly take, Soon my body would lose its power to wake. Satisfaction I felt as my mind lost control Or was it the Grim Reaper, coming to take my soul. Two hours later almost too late Repulsive and denial was my state. Two doctors reviving me was my only cure destroying the poison to kill me for sure? Can't keep it down & not fighting to try But it's the only way I'm not going to die. Waking up from ill unconsciousness only to expel the poison of which I digest. Help me through each waking breath don't wake me if I drift to my sudden death. Holding on and don't know why I'm tired of this old life. I wake to find my life hanging by a thread; with a spitting headache I wished I was truly dead. Then I begin to get a picture and a brief moment to find, I almost killed myself was I out of my mind. It was that Gods Love that gave me one more chance to live my life to the fullest and spare no expense. The voice tells me now it wasn't my time & that Life is MINE , to toss away our ONLY Life, for this one Life that we have it is too DIVINE to swallow our life away with pills & wine!