I Cant Tell

I cant tell! I wont tell! Its to painful everything hurts to much. Things I keep locked up in a box wrapped in canes will never be unlocked. I'm not ready I cant! i wont! it hurts to much to remember I dont want the wounds to open. The pain of giving up on both my self and them. The pain of hate the pain of sadness and the things I'm still dealing with. The teoroir of being alone the fear of my own thoughts The things no one else knows are being pushed deep in the back of my thoughts. I'm not ready to tell I'm not ready to open that chapter again I'm not ready I'm just not ready.