I Can'T Really Tell You What Is, Only What It Feels Like

So depressed, maybe even a little stressed, heart beats completely out of my chest, but why? I can't the image out of my head, I rest head in my bed, restless, all night Oh i'm so breathless, I cry.. This inflicted, conflicted pain, may come from within me, but it started with you. Something so bittersweet, often lies through your teeth, that's what you fed me. Stay true, is what I said to you, even this action was cruel. In this private world, I'm all alone I don't like how it hurts. Completely isolated myself from the world, it's been days since I answered my phone. Am I hurt, or did I receive what I was worth? Dwelling on the past is my stress, I cant move on, I'm definitely depressed. Insecurities building on me, with your manipulation and painful memories. I seize to believe this is my life's destiny, I need a revision, What exactly is this thing we call living? I forgot good times, I let in the bad. Being me, living life, freely, positive intensity, it made made you mad. Innocent girl learned how to live a lie, life passed by,learned how to fake a smile and cry inside. I need a lift, a need to rejuvenate, I need to release this hate, at this rate, I hope I'm not too late. Overly emotional, this experience..hurt my physical, mental, well- being Who could cause so much pain, was it just me? How could your aggression, and obsession allow me to numb the delight from life. I neglect the light,the love, the girl, who once knew how to live. She was wonderful, highly intellectual, and oh so beautiful, Now she's evidence of physical,emotional damaged work from the palm of your hands. Completely broken,maybe even for good.