I Can'T Explain

So much happens I can’t explain. Thoughts fly by much like a train. I know things can’t remain the same, I can’t help what’s inside my brain. I have these visions and see you, I remember things we used to do. It has passed and now is gone, I hold on, but for how long. I remember when there was a time, When I could see at least a sign. Still, I seem to fall further behind, Now so much is gone I can’t find. All I wanted was to smile, Now it seems I am out of style. I once had love but now it’s lost, So many opportunities that I tossed. I want it all to go away, I have to leave I cannot stay. I look around, I’ve lost my way. I think of change perhaps I may. I seem to get lost inside myself, Then I become someone else. I try to see the light of day, All the clouds get in my way. I feel tired and lose some fight. Light gives way, brings forth the night. I look for answer but there’s none in sight. I can’t explain so I hold on tight. I need to lie down and get some sleep, Close my eyes and count some sheep. Maybe tomorrow will be better than today, The fabric of life appears tattered and frayed.