I Can'T Breathe

I feel claustrophic I don't know why exactly, But suddenly I feel trapped I feel like I can’t breath That half hour drive felt like a lifetime ago with the windows down in the 50 degrees With my hair racing around and words flying from my mouth painful but pure Going 75 Catching deep breaths of the air rushing through my windows when I slowed or turned. I felt free I feel so trapped I’m nauseous I don’t know what to do Help me Tortured mind is too accurate right now. I need I don’t know what I need I don’t know what I’m lacking how can I know how to fix it? I need fresh air I need adventure I’m not sure if I need to be alone or with a love Do I have a love? I certainly romanticize him enough but will he be the perfection I anticipate? I need the ocean breeze right now I need a warm grassy field right now I need a rainy autumn forest right now I need a silent wood blanketed in snow right now I Need Life Right Now I feel like I’m dying. I feel my childish spark fighting to burn and hurting me as I turn to average ice. How do I stop it I have to stop the flame from freezing How If I can’t stop it from freezing ill just crush it all Pause the flame The one beautiful flame or nothing at all I will not live a painfully pretend person Do I have to die so soon just to keep my wits, or rather my lack of them? I can’t breath Help me breathe