I Broke Down

I broke down tears streamed down my face screams inside my head on repeat there's no way I can beat monsters in my mind they're on full-time I don't ever get a break they just want me to fall down; covered in sound in the back of my mind there never seems to be time my thoughts are getting hazy I try to shut off my brain there's just to much pain to much to try and forget So I stand in the rain and let water pour out of my eyes The rain is my disguise it hides my tears and washes away my fears I no longer ignore it or try to destroy it I finally am letting myself feel pain because I know there's always more to gain I'll drown my demons in my tears of acceptance of the fact Free of the monsters for a day I smile and laugh until tomorrow then I'll do it all over again