I Betrayed My Best Friend

Each day I feel it, a wave of pain, a lonely ache deep in my veins. Tears sting my eyes and blind me from the world I once thought as beautiful. I destroyed any remaining trust... I must change myself, if I want to see her again. She was the only one who never betrayed me and I went ahead and f***ed her life. Now I feel like I don't have a purpose. I have no obligation to continue breathing, other than the sliver of hope that the world may forgive me. I grow weaker every day. I can't eat. No sleep. Only emptiness. Why did this have to happen? I ruined everything. I just want it to end.