I Am the Stone Flower
I am the rock that he doesn't have to be
I am the stone flower so he can be the wind
My tears will flow so he can blow
I know him I know his pain
His pain becomes my own
No excuse others say but, I say
I am the rock that he doesn't have to be
You see me with my trendy shades on my way to work
With the black eye and you think you can see the whole story
But all you see is the black eye and the fist behind it
You dont know that when I get mad I push the needed buttons
To get the wanted reaction
You dont know that I found a voilent man that embodies my father
Because that is what I crave
We fight hard but we love harder
Can you see the pain behind his eyes as well
As he fights himself to not fight me
That day you saw me sitting in my blood soaked tee
That's the day I picked a fight with him
You say real men dont hit women no matter what
But I say sometimes, I need to be hit, I want to be hit
I stay out of fear
But it is the fear that I am lost without him
We've become such a part of eachother
Both raised in abusive homes
Its become the norm for us
I am not a victim
I am a stone flower, a rock as you say
We keep eachother sane
In our own symbiotic relationship
I am his sanity, his hold on reality
And I take the bruises and the pain
Willingly, because he is my heart
We know eachother, understand eachother,
So you see, you dont know the him that I know
And you will never know the me that he knows
I put up with him
Because
He puts up with me
I am not the victim
I am the rock that he doesnt have to be
I am the stone flower so he can be the wind
My tears will flow so he can blow
This is what I know
Copyright © Jennifer Abrams | Year Posted 2012
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