Damaris Balderas Poet Rhyme

I am not okay

I hate my thoughts, my mind ain’t alright, 
It’s a freaking battle and i'm losing the fight. 
I can’t change my past, or the mistakes that I've made, 
Whenever I make progress, it all starts to fade. 
My insecurities are bigger than me, they take over my mind, 
I overthink everything, and I become blind..
Blind to reality, so I give into temptation, 
but then i keep going because my kids are my motivation.
I get sidetracked so easily, I don't get things done, 
I overwhelm myself, before I've even begun. 
I have no agency, I can't choose anymore, 
I'm a slave to my addiction, that keeps me wanting more. 
It’s a never ending cycle, that i need to break, 
I already know the steps that I need to take.
I just need the strength that only God can give, 
I wanna keep trying, because  I wanna live.

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Gordon Mcconnell November 3, 2025 at 1:20 PM Great inspiring poetic piece Damaris, you speak so movingly and emotionally with clarity and passion. Continue to look to God, who loves you so much and is on your side. Blessings always, Gordon Damaris Balderas November 4, 2025 at 10:10 PM Thank you so much! for taking your time to comment on my poem.

Karen Jones November 2, 2025 at 2:23 AM Emotive poem! I admire you for you are able to express yourself and in that use your words as a means of coping and addressing your challenges. My father battled addiction and beat it just before he was murdered. Life is challenging but your love for yourself and your children is powerful and inspiring you to persevere or you wouldn’t write this. You can do this seek proper counseling and assistance. You deserve to live healthy and happy and free from addiction. Call 988 if you are suicidal ok? Damaris Balderas November 4, 2025 at 10:09 PM Thank you so much.. I try.. Thats all. I just write what I feel.