I Am Not Me
Gray sky’s warm tear drops sad heart
Why do I cry on sight of a blue moon?
There are no flowers to soon to bloom
When is the sun going to shine?
Cloudy days bring rain to my
face
No ray of hope to bring me out of my depression
My sad eyes no longer smile can’t walk a mile
As fast as I use too weak to run away
Must face the noise in my head the tear drops
Cloud my vision the sadness much too deep
To find myself to profound are the scares that I wear
And the pain I can’t not bare to see myself in despair
Broken not ready to be spoken and fix
What’s inside my head the scares have not heal
What I feel is lonely and sad who can I turn to
Who can I trust to pick me up when I stumble and fall?
When those I trusted let me down believing all is fine
I wear the scares black and blue all up and down my arms
On a bad day silent tears comfort me
I am a mire reflection of myself no longer fiscally strong
A reflection of past memories a stronger me happier days
One day at a time fills my days sadness concludes my nights
Worry and despair takes my sleep weakness takes my energy
Aim fading like in eraser used on a sheet of paper
Where is my resolution my conclusion to my dilemma?
Some might say feeling sorry for my self is too easy
Not use to easy nothing came or comes easy in my life
Still I manage to pick myself up not completely healed
A mirror of scares reflection
of past times
Fighting to get back what under the knife took from me
Impossible time to move on easy said than done
Half the person I use to be looks back at me where can I go
When the black clouds fallow me trying to claim
Victory pill popping white coat visits
Stress burning a hole in my head half the person I use to be
A mere reflection looking back at me
Where did I go that early December Morning?
Love ones wait hours gone by to awake not the same
But half the person I use to be no passion lights gone dim
Still fighting to get back to myself and I separated
By health related issues to deep to come back from
Copyright © Mirian Parrilla Garcia | Year Posted 2016
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