I Am Not Going

I put on my face and look in the mirror at my self. 
Expecting to see something lovely and nice.
There is an enormous pimple which winks like an elf. 
I take a razor blade and give it a slice.

My makeup is ruined, and there is blood on my face.
Mr. Wonderful is on his way. I feel out of place.
I tell my mother I’m not going, the date is ruined now.
I feel fat and ugly and angry; my face clearly says cow.

It’s not so bad, my girlfriend lies, she likes the guy too.
I know she’s pretending to be nice. Her name is Lou.
I kick her out as I stare into the mirror looking for flaws.
My cheeks are all bloated, I look bigger than Claus!

Mascara is running, and there are tissue pieces with blood.
I hear a car stop outside, with a loud angry thud.
“He’s here!” my mother says, getting ready to get rid of me.
I hear her offer my Mr. Charming some cookies and tea.

I am sniffling and sobbing and shaking my bed.
I look like Godzilla, I think in my head.
My sister should go, she is the pretty one anyway.
She eagerly takes me up on this; and I decide to stay.
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Pettit Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 5:27 PM
I can always expect quality from whatever you write, and there is no exception here.
Krutsinger Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 9:48 PM
Thank you Robert. Such a lovely thing to say!
Proxenos Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 10:57 AM
Oh Caren, good poem but you are a poetess, who can compare to you, not even a pretty sister who is your twin! Excellent and clever humor. Stay safe and well. Blessings and hugs, Jennifer.
Krutsinger Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 9:49 PM
Thank you Jennifer. Ha! I was actually thinking of all of those girls who are WAY too hard on themselves.
Wolf Avatar
April 1, 2021 at 9:51 PM
This one hurts, Caren. I don't know how you managed to finish it. ~ 12-Step Recovery Offer
Krutsinger Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 4:17 AM
Hahaha. Fiction. Girls are so hard on themselves
Hankins Avatar
April 1, 2021 at 8:35 PM
Resolve is resolve. Mr. Charming will come back to you if he was meant for you and he really liked you rather than your sister.
Hankins Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 8:57 AM
Are you identical twins??? In that case, he may never have known the difference. HaHaHa. I see...good fiction, you had me fooled!
Krutsinger Avatar
April 2, 2021 at 4:18 AM
Some could never tell us apart. We look identical.
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