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I Am Dan

I am Dan, to some, Dan The Man
I peed my pants for too long
to be the man.

Before I say why; know, 
it will make me cry.
Will it you? Or only sigh.
To sigh or cry, let us try.

They gave me cinnamon sticks
dusty and sharp,
eat these, you'll stay dry.
I ate these and in the morning,
pee down to my knees.

They tried a warning,
don't you dare, it's in your head...
Pee, Pee, Pee, everywhere.
I went to camp, I didn't dare sleep.
I hugged my knees
and prayed for morning.
It came, and behind my lids 
everything bad waited.

But wait, between my legs-
a desert dry!
Elate, elate I am trained,
thirteen the magic number!
No magic, just done,
but the why, no fun.
Time to cry.

He hurt me young, he
taught me shame as he...
I took the blame and told no one.
And that is the why,
the why, why, why
and yet,
here I am, Dan The Man.

Copyright © Dan Helppi | Year Posted 2014

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Poet Destroyer A Date: 4/30/2015 9:16:00 PM Dan, Congrats.................... Luv ~Linda~ Login to Reply

Skat A Date: 4/30/2015 8:49:00 PM Hello Dan The Man :) Congratulations in MY keeping it real contest. ~SKAT~ Login to Reply

Verlena S. Walker Date: 10/27/2014 1:07:00 PM Well done therapy Dan. I have enjoyed your poetic style a heap. This is a gem to read. Verlena Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/27/2014 3:44:00 PM I'm glad you enjoyed Verlena.

Brenda Meier-Hans Date: 10/27/2014 10:17:00 AM I'm glad I came over to see this. And it's also time I welcomed you. Both my brothers had this weakness but it was handled quite differently by my parents. I only now see how beautifully my mom and dad acted. I am so sorry you had to go through torment. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/27/2014 3:36:00 PM Thanks Brenda.

Maurice Yvonne Date: 10/26/2014 8:58:00 PM Awesome write. If you could see me I would give you a standing ovation. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/26/2014 10:26:00 PM I see you Maurice! Thank you.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 10/25/2014 2:50:00 PM finally saw the reply you left me. Thanks for explaining a bit. Just to let you know, I had notifications turned off to see replies, so normally I won't see if you made a reply to me at your poem, only if you come leave me a note!! Can't wait to see more new material of yours. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/25/2014 4:42:00 PM Thanks Andrea! I can see how busy you are! Gosh, your poems are so good!

Dave Timperley Date: 10/25/2014 9:13:00 AM Hey Dan, I'm Dave the Man. please take a peek at some of my stuff. like Bed Dread, In a corner, No hurt, no fear. May your pen bring you peace through your poetry. It works for me. God Bless. D. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/25/2014 10:40:00 AM Thanks Dave, I shall.

Richard Lamoureux Date: 10/25/2014 9:11:00 AM I think you would relate to my book "DUMMY, Hurtful and Healing Words" this poem really strikes a chord. You have a way with words Dan, you will fit in nicely. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/25/2014 10:37:00 AM Thanks for the kind words Richard, I will consider your book.

Olive Eloisa Guillermo - Fraser Date: 10/20/2014 2:36:00 AM what a horrible event is this.. :( If this true I hope God forgives those who did these and tha may He grant you more blessings.. writing is one way to heal the brokens.. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/20/2014 7:27:00 AM Thank you, and yes I have been granted many blessings. Your poems are one of them.

Andrea Dietrich Date: 10/19/2014 7:38:00 PM gosh, Dan, Am I reading too much into this. The ending makes me think you were abused very badly and this is what caused your horrible plight. So sorry for that. It's good you can talk about it now . I hope you do NOT take the blame today. Nice to meet you here. Login to Reply Dan Helppi Date: 10/19/2014 9:00:00 PM Thank you Andrea, I think everyone uses the poking stick of writing sometimes, in this way we don't really have to touch the pain, we can just poke it and maybe even squish it. Thanks again for the kind words.