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I Am Caroline Foster

9/20/16

I am Caroline Foster.
I am fifteen-years-old.
I am shortish.
I am rather thin.
I am intelligent I guess.
I am oblivious.
I am weird.
I am childish.
I am different and not in a good way.

I am the girl who sits in the front of the class because I am expected to.
I am the young actress who can only find her voice through being someone else.
I am the nerd people only become friends with so I can do their homework.
I am an encyclopedia, Google, and a dictionary all rolled in one.
I am an outsider.
I am the one who will never be accepted because of my social awkwardness.
I am and will never be anything more than a textbook.
I am only a tool.
I am scarred from the knives I have cut into my own wrists.
I am depression, a dark room with the light switch torn out.
I am anxiety that screams with deafening volume just to keep me chained to the ground.

I am the one who’s supposed to know all the answers.
I am expected to be a perfect little robot who should never step out of line.
I am afraid to accept myself for who I am because of fear of the judgement and rejection of others.
I am the girl who is taken advantage of because they know I’m too scared to say “no.”
I am terrified of failure and not meeting the highest of standards.
I am hideous.
I am disgusting.
I am so ugly that to attract a guy I have to hide behind pounds of makeup.
I am sick and tired of being labeled by my skin, religion, GPA, cup size, and my face.
I am done hiding in the shadows and letting the opinions of others control me.
I am waiting every day for it to be my last just so I can get away from all the hate.
I am suicide ready to happen.

But, I am beautiful.
But, I am unique.
But, I am still that wide-eyed dreamer who just wants to write.
But, I am a writer of stories that could change the life of one.
But, I am not what others think of me
I am not just another face among billions of others.
I am chosen.
I am a daughter of God.
I am here for a reason.
I am me and still discovering what being me means.

And I am okay with that.

I am telling you to rip off the history and stereotypes that you have been forced to lug around for so long.
I am showing that no matter who you are, there is still light at the end of the tunnel.

I am Caroline Foster.

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Moon Flower Date: 9/27/2016 3:28:00 AM That's the way to go! Congrats on your first entry and welcome to Poetry Soup, Caroline. :) Login to Reply

Skat A Date: 9/26/2016 3:20:00 PM Caroline Foster, Welcome to Poetry Soup. It will be a delight to read and become familiar with your poems in the future. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :) Drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs **YNR - SKAT Login to Reply

Poet Destroyer A Date: 9/21/2016 8:30:00 PM Caroline, Welcome to Poetry soup, I hope you enjoy the community. Here, you will find friendly poets who enjoy supporting one another. I myself, enjoy reading and commenting those who want to be read. The only time I give constructive criticism is when a poet desires it. However, if for some reason the poem is not my field I will guide you to someone who is more qualified than I. Stop by and read one of my poems if you like. My poems are not perfect, but I have a feeling you might like one. I encourage you to check out the contest page and read to receive comments. Tell me a little about your poetic skills if you like. It will be my pleasure to follow and read every poem you post from here on :) We are Lucky To Have you. Your New Poet Friend @-> LINDA <-@ Login to Reply

Manmath Dalei Date: 9/21/2016 7:29:00 AM I am Manmath, ok !!!....Good entry with a nice poem. Hope u will enjoy PS very much.Very meaningful & deep write. Keep on writing..........//:) with love Login to Reply Caroline Foster Date: 9/21/2016 7:32:00 AM Thank you. Poetry is something I'm not the best at but I'm glad people enjoy it.

Carol B. Date: 9/20/2016 6:51:00 PM Caroline Foster you're very talented. Keep up with your writing. I know for myself singing was very therapeutic. As you pointed out there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Follow your passion and your dreams. If it's writing go for it :) Login to Reply Caroline Foster Date: 9/21/2016 7:33:00 AM Thank you. I'm going to set a goal for myself to publish before I leave high school.