I Am An Empty Soul

I am an empty soul; I simply have no drive, it’s a wonder that I can survive I am too depressed and I feel no rest; I always feel this pain deep in my chest Life is full of lies and my silent cries, I could show you agony just with my eyes Sorrow comes and goes as this tumor grows and I keep it to myself so no one knows Driven to the edge with hypocrisy; push me off the ledge in this toxic sea Oh the scene is vacant no matter where I turn; I can feel the heat of the endless burn Inching toward an answer, but then I get let down; all my hopes and expectations instantly drown Disconnected feelings and a lack of empathy; I feel empty like a hollow tree Nothing surprises as I expect what is real; I have lived too long for anything to appeal Life gives pain, disappointment, and despair; therefore it is hard for me to care Please give me something; something to hope; because I am at the end of my rope Please let me breathe so I do not choke; these times are bitter while I feel broke Why can’t I feel whole with this half-life I live; why is it hard for me to forgive Why so naïve to think I am worthy; always filthy, always feel so dirty Why want to die if I’m already dead; I have no life just like I’ve said I bet you think that I’d need a shrink; life goes by fast, as fast as I blink Why is there disgust which lurks in my mind; why must my emotions seem to decline This life always seemed so fake and there is not much left that I can take Tremors of anxiety and surges of angst; I have come so far and have taken great lengths The wind is just a breeze which is there to haunt me; I feel nothing there, nor can I see Something has been removed from my heart; I have slowly crumbled and fallen apart All the lies and stress that rests within; even though I smile in this life with a grin All of it is false I hate feeling this way; I can always feel my soul decay No one wants me even though I know I am great; it is hard to say if you can relate I have felt this way so many times; life has given me these bitter limes I guess I could take it as a sign; I have lived this far so I guess I’m fine I just am an empty soul; in this life I have no control All the pretty little things I desire always seem to set on fire You can see it in my face as I am looking dryer; and my ever crumbling disgraceful empire If you ever thought you knew who I was; it is okay, nobody ever does The lies surround me there is no escape; there is way too much red tape Why can’t life just be more simplex; instead it’s cursing me with a hex Pushing through this life throughout the years; hiding all these useless, wasteful tears I don’t think that you can understand; I live life as it was pretend Just an empty soul I am today; there is nothing left to say Just to live it all the same; the greater things in life are lame