Hurting You Hurts Me the Most

When my life hits its all time high I reach my all time low. When I thought I was at my happiest It was my deceiving mind burying my heart with lies and telling me I wanted something I didn’t. My mind wants what my heart doesn’t and in the end the ones I love get hurt which hurts me even more. This kind of love is confusing It’s the kind that makes you weak in the knees and stronger in the heart but your face does not glow with joy because you don’t know if its what you want. In the end I hurt myself and the worst I hurt you. So my heart becomes a burden to carry because of all the times it has been broken it makes me wonder if it is really I who is the deceiver or is it you. Do you want this too or are we both striving for the impossible too early. Do you even know what I mean? My love is like a fortune teller with one word answers hard to decipher and scary at the same time. I just hope I don’t hurt you, because that would hurt me the most.