How I Feel

All good things must come to an end And when that happens, you find your true friends They’re there with you through ups and downs They’re there with you through smiles and frowns But in my life, I don’t know who’s real Because I have so much to deal with My best friend is my cousin Sh’Quon He helps me through whatever goes on I can cry I can pout He knows exactly What I’m about I want everything to end I'm tired of how much I have to pretend That everything in my life is going well When in my heart I really want to yell I need one of the greatest hugs From someone I trust and love I want to be held until my fears are let go So through this I can let myself know I have to stop blaming I have to stop accusing Because through it all I feel like I'm losing I'm scared of what will happen next I can’t talk through IM I can’t even text I don’t want to talk to anyone else Because I know, I put it all on myself I need someone I can trust and depend on And I believe I found it in my cousin Sh’Quon Because he’s the only one that I can share with He’s the only one my age who cares I need to just write To let it all go I need to be held And that just goes to show I can’t believe I just talk to Sh’Quon I cant even open up like that to my mom I'm scared and there’s no where to hide So I put all the pain and fear on the inside I wish I could just let it go But I'm holding on too tight and I don’t want it to show Can I just run and run to a place Where I can stay and not see anyone’s face I need to let go I need to run I need to do something To get this over and done People tell me to write so that’s what I'm doing I need to draw but who am I fooling I can’t do it no more I want to give up My cup runneth over, I wish, there’s nothing in my cup This burden's too heavy to lift and to bear I got 100% of people saying that they’ll be there I can’t let this go I can’t shake it off I'm too close hell and it’s getting too hot Can I give up? Can I run away? Yea right, man I wish Because that’ll be the day