How Do I Feel Today

If I had my way...that's how this started how I wanted to compose my latest masterpiece though in the position I'm in my thoughts reign weary as I struggle not to slumber while standing so I take a seat to distract my bleeding mind What luck has befallen me this week safe to say it's all in the wind Riddle me this: what else can I do to unwind cancel out the growing cancer called stress rid myself of the rage rumbling below the surface purge the persistent pressure upon my shoulders and be myself but as myself I've exhausted all my options I'm exhausted but I can never sleep it waits for the wrong time to strike with the duration bouncing between hours 2 to 1 creating mire anger I have to unleash through manner of shouting, mostly at myself at everyone trying to tell me what I need Funny thing about what I need I and only I know what I need I need everyone to leave me alone, leave me be all except for five take me out of the equation and five becomes four How do I feel today, in love with Esmeralda and in her regard to her, I still need to construct construct her a ballad decorated in purple roses and strawberry fields a promise I've not completely kept in contrast to the ballad I gave verbally the other day How do I feel today in like, in lust fueled by confusion with red tinted pink lips belonging to Ally Grey a confession awaiting expression only forced by heat and sluggishness still she's a beauty in tiger skin never caged but never free is she even into me How do I feel today vulnerable like the song I first shared with the ears of Sarah sweet Sorceress vulnerable for consistently letting her in vulnerable for days I can't control vulnerable for days I wish to explode How do I feel today' breakable so break me out transform me, glass, into brick so I don't cave in upon myself so easily but if forsaken my request is stick dynamite within my skin end it quickly, only promise to remember me Remember me, a recent movie I've seen but did you see this coming Fin'