Hopeless

The past is behind me but I can’t forget All the things I had done the words that were said. The pain is inside me it won’t leave me alone I hope today God calls me home. The pain I can’t handle it’s just too much Your comfort won’t help not even your touch. I felt all alone even though I’ve been told God will watch over me my hand He will hold. Why can’t you hear me the prayers I’ve said? Each night while I kneel down by my bed. My parents won’t listen I don’t think they care I’m wishing, hoping, and praying You’re there. Please watch my every step I take For when I slip it’s the errors I make. I disappoint my parents, I disappoint the world, I disappoint myself, but most of all I disappoint the Lord. I want to say I’m sorry I don’t know what to say Please Lord just be there and tell me it’s okay. My world is falling all around me I feel so alone and scared I just want to know before I leave if someone out there cared.