Hope , More Or Less

My hope had been all but squeezed out..like an orange at 6 am. The pressures of life the strongest forces on me. As I watched my hair turn to gray. Then she came to me in an email, this girl from so long ago. As I told her of the feelings I hid this girl from so long ago. I said how I stood close behind her,her hair I was trying to sniff. I said "only you would I do this" I still dont know- why this I did. When I opened my email to read it. I thought about so long ago.. I remembered excitiment and fear being around her.. and again my hands started to shake...this girl from so long ago.. She said "I am not the same person, not the girl from so long ago." My hope started finally returning as I spent summer weeks by her side. I spoke of a future together I said I'd no longer hide. She dumped me in an email,she was not the girl from back then. and I'm left almost hopeless again. RJM2014