Hidden disability

I have a disability no one else can see, People think I'm normal but it's hidden inside of me. Sometime I'm happy other times I'm sad, Anxiety depression doctors said but others think I'm mad. They all just say get a grip there are happy times ahead, It's easy for them to say as they can't see in my head. A disability you can't see is so hard to explain, O.C.D the doctors call it but others think I'm insane. Things have to be a certain way i go through it in my head, People say get over it so I force a smile instead. I know people mean well in what there trying to say, but anxiety, depression O.C.D they don't just go away. I try to be normal just for a little while, another tablet I have to take I feel like a lab rat trial. A panic attack I had today in front of all my friends' another unseen disability the list just never ends. people think I want attention because the illness they can't see, The only way they would understand is if they could be me . I wouldn't wish this on anyone depression or anxiety, scared to go out or be alone scared to even be me. It's hard with a disability that people can not see, anxiety depression O.C.D can't just make them go away they are all a part of me.